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Happy-Fairy Tail Christmas by Rakkard
Happy-Fairy Tail Christmas
So this is happy ... with a Santa hat... and no color...  found it laying around so thought I'd post it.
Sorcerous Horcerus by Rakkard
Sorcerous Horcerus
I have no idea how this pose came to be....  i don't usually use this angle more frontal.
Charity dont care by Rakkard
Charity dont care
and the other one of the two i did before my last journal entry.

This is my OC Charity who usually cares about the needs and wants of everyone, but here... she just isn't impressed...  maybe a lack of sleep or my own personal trauma leaking in.  who knows
Its been almost a year sense I was last around on Deviant art. Sense then I have lost the one I believed to be my one and only. I have been seconds from Suicide, and been on anti-depressant medication.

As of last week I took myself off the pills and am trying to accept my life for what it is. Its true that the woman I hold closest to my heart may no longer have feelings for me, or even want to speak a single word to me in all this time, but that wont change the way I feel for her.  All I can do is accept this as my reality and hope that I can find the courage to seek someone else. I have waited a year sense she left me, and while I am willing to wait for all eternity for her to come back to me, my family and friends are not. 

My self depression and guilt over what I could have done better or what I might have done wrong has only driven me farther from the rest of the important people in my life.  So I am going to be doing my best from now on to move forward. I will leave a nice figurative home in my heart for her, and I doubt I will ever go seeking someone else for love.

On the other hand, sense I've been off the medication, I have gotten a little bit of my artistic urge back.  I've drawn two new doodles and am debating on wether to upload them or not. It would seem that I've acumulated a nice thick layer of rust and forgotten my process for drawing a whole lot of things.... Ya know... cause I don't do that silly thing with making bubble models first....  i really need to learn to do that...  And Yet my nit picky over analytical brain still points out WAY more flaws in my drawing then what many people would even notice.
  • Mood: Thanks
  • Listening to: A Long Way from Equestria
  • Watching: House
  • Playing: Monster Hunter 3 Ultimate
  • Eating: nothing... i'm fat -_-
  • Drinking: water


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Anyone can feel free to use my line art for coloring, as long as you give me credit for the line art itself and give me a post in my comments so I can see it. I hope the drawings can provide at least some practice for you wonderful coloring people out there.

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RikkiStar Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Rakkard Featured By Owner May 15, 2014
wow been a long time sense i've seen you comment at me XD    i dont have many reasons to be on DA anymore.  my breakup kinda left my desire to do arts on empty.   course its been about 10 months ...  still hurts
MagicalHoney Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday! :iconpinkiepiecakeplz:
Rakkard Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2013
Thanks!  glad to have some friends on DA who took the time to care  =3
ToThe-Moon Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2013  Student
Happy Birthday!
Rakkard Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2013
thanks so much ^_^   didn't get many birthday wishes on my birthday =)
ArKrArK Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2013
Welcome to :iconmlp-fim-union:! We hope you enjoy yourself here!
Rakkard Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2013
we will see, not sure how or why i got invite but will be happy to see how things turn out.
ArKrArK Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2013
You're welcome! I am sure that you will find something interesting for yourself in our group!:)
MimiPony Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Hi !
Thanks you for the fav :hug:

If you're interested for a Commission or a Kiriban, check my journal !
The money is for the first journey of my life. ;)

Have a nice day ! :love:
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