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Mando Cookie Color by Rakkard
Mando Cookie Color
Drawing i did for MandoPony while he was doing a counterstrike stream session.  I wanted him to pick a color for the jar but sadly i never got a response in the chat for the stream.  Sooo I ended up doing typical brown color, which in hindsight makes for a ton of brown with the cookie, hair and jar.  oh well
Twilight Colored by Rakkard
Twilight Colored
So i colored one of my older drawing at request from :iconsorcerushorserus: ... it seems the blue in the mane is a bit brighter then on paper >,>  color pencil problems?
Its been almost a year sense I was last around on Deviant art. Sense then I have lost the one I believed to be my one and only. I have been seconds from Suicide, and been on anti-depressant medication.

As of last week I took myself off the pills and am trying to accept my life for what it is. Its true that the woman I hold closest to my heart may no longer have feelings for me, or even want to speak a single word to me in all this time, but that wont change the way I feel for her.  All I can do is accept this as my reality and hope that I can find the courage to seek someone else. I have waited a year sense she left me, and while I am willing to wait for all eternity for her to come back to me, my family and friends are not. 

My self depression and guilt over what I could have done better or what I might have done wrong has only driven me farther from the rest of the important people in my life.  So I am going to be doing my best from now on to move forward. I will leave a nice figurative home in my heart for her, and I doubt I will ever go seeking someone else for love.

On the other hand, sense I've been off the medication, I have gotten a little bit of my artistic urge back.  I've drawn two new doodles and am debating on wether to upload them or not. It would seem that I've acumulated a nice thick layer of rust and forgotten my process for drawing a whole lot of things.... Ya know... cause I don't do that silly thing with making bubble models first....  i really need to learn to do that...  And Yet my nit picky over analytical brain still points out WAY more flaws in my drawing then what many people would even notice.
  • Mood: Thanks
  • Listening to: A Long Way from Equestria
  • Watching: House
  • Playing: Monster Hunter 3 Ultimate
  • Eating: nothing... i'm fat -_-
  • Drinking: water


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Anyone can feel free to use my line art for coloring, as long as you give me credit for the line art itself and give me a post in my comments so I can see it. I hope the drawings can provide at least some practice for you wonderful coloring people out there.

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Hardii Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2015
Happy Birthday! :3 happy DA B-day :3 Happy Birthday Grin 
Rakkard Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2015
Thanks!   you were the only internet friend to wish me a happy b-day!
Hardii Featured By Owner 3 days ago
Wow really? :o wow, there's nothing to say thank you :3 you're welcome ^^
dastryin Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2015
hello daring
Rakkard Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2015
hello Dasterdly
RikkiStar Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Rakkard Featured By Owner May 15, 2014
wow been a long time sense i've seen you comment at me XD    i dont have many reasons to be on DA anymore.  my breakup kinda left my desire to do arts on empty.   course its been about 10 months ...  still hurts
MagicalHoney Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday! :iconpinkiepiecakeplz:
Rakkard Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2013
Thanks!  glad to have some friends on DA who took the time to care  =3
ToThe-Moon Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2013  Student
Happy Birthday!
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